I’m curious to know if this happens to you, too…

You’re feeling SO alive. You’re waking up each day with devotion and clarity. You are gliding through life. Your timing and your jokes are ON POINT. Your work is focused, concise, and brilliant. You’re getting asked on dates left and right (or flying high in your relationship with your partner). You’re managing to fit in yoga and working out, and also plenty of play.

And the suddenly…SMACK. It’s like your life has been ripped right out of you. You’re pinned to the floor feeling heavy, dark, and like you’ve been robbed of your light. It’s a struggle to even get out of bed, let alone make your way through life with any amount of chipper sparkle.

This has happened to me a lot. I’ve been faced with many crippling periods of depression. Periods where I had to really convince myself that I wanted to be here. Obviously, I did. Because I’m writing you an email. And obviously you have done the same, because you’re reading this.

Let’s take a moment and honor ourselves for that. For saying YES to more life. To more greatness. Even when we couldn’t wrap our heads around what the point of it all was.

Wow, those moments overwhelm us, don’t they? It’s so dark that you can’t even see a few minutes ahead. The whole, “look for the bright side,” bullshit hurts more than someone taking a dagger and stabbing you in the heart. Intense…but if you’ve been there, I know you can relate.

What I’ve done in these moments is quite simple. I PRAY.

This is number 2 in a series of 6 prayers. (number 1: forgiveness & renewal can be found here) It’s a great prayer for those depressed periods where life just feels hard, periods where you lose motivation, or when you need a little encouragement from something outside of yourself. Or within 😉

 


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Next time you’re really struggling to find your heart and trust the life its giving you, you probably wont want to, but just try whispering this prayer.

Dear life. I don’t know how I feel about you right now. Well, actually, I do know how I feel about you right now: nothing. And yet, everything. And I’m pissed at you for forcing me through this. I don’t know where you’re leading me. I don’t know why this is happening to me. I don’t understand what all of this is for. And quite frankly, I’d prefer not to be here.

But I guess I am still breathing. And clearly, dear heart, you’re still beating. So there’s something to be learned here. So can I ask you a favor, guys?

Can you please remind me of the magic that can exist here? Can you remind me what it feels like to want to smile? Can you give me a direction to walk? And can you please give me something to look forward to along the way?  And can that thing waiting be really beautiful and breathtaking? And can it be a part of my dream come true? That would really help me out a lot right now.

Because this experience is draining me. And I would really like to LIVE again. I’d really like to be able to wake up and smile. I’d really like to be able to walk down the street and feel confident again. I’d like to feel a lightness to my being. I’d like to experience connection with my friends and lovers and family. I’d like to dance and sing and play again.

But like I said, it feels a lot like I’m moving through molasses these days, and so I think I’ll need a little help to get up and get on that path that we’re creating here.The one toward the magic and the sparkle. So can you send me an Angel, a friend, a companion, somebody or something to hold my hand until I feel comfortable to walk it solo?

Thank you. That will really help me a lot. I am so grateful to know that even when it feels like there is a weight on me, I have the capacity to ask for your help, Life, in creating something different. 

I will exhale my breath in this moment, giving it over to you. And as I inhale, I feel that you’ve transformed it for me. You’ve cleared it of a little bit of that blackness. I feel the soft glistening of my innocent and joyful self starting to revitalize the cells of my body, mind and Spirit. I know I am doing all I can just by continuing to breathe. And right now, I let that be enough.

And so it is.

In moments when this has been my daily prayer, I’ve been told to take medication. Everything in my body has always asked me to refuse the suggestion and instead, lean very deeply into prayer. And even deeper into essential oils.

It’s like I always knew there was a teaching in the darkness, as much as I hated it, and so I learned to sit with it. And I’m so grateful for my devout listening, even when it seems hard to do. It’s given me an unshakeable sense of strength that nothing can ever take.

Perhaps you know what I’m talking about. And I trust you do 😉

And if you’re in a space of wanting to feel empowered in the face of a high stress life, anxiety, depression, PTSD, all the mental guck that comes along with living in a world that likes to hand us loads of baggage, I’ve got a super special invitation for you.

Starting mid-August I will be co-leading with Life a 12-week immersion called Essentoily You. In it I will be teaching you how to use emotional aromatherapy alongside:

meditation
free writing
satsang and
tuning in with your body and it’s energy centers

All of which will allow you to have a greater sense of confidence in how to work through the dirt and grime keeping you from your inner peace.

It’s not about getting to a place where there are no longer periods of challenge or darkness, that wouldn’t be life, but it IS about getting to a place where every last second becomes a catalyst of grateful surrender and expansion.

I truly hope you’ll join me & the incredible community of support waiting for you.

Click here and say YES to your aliveness & grace.

If you have any questions about the program, whether it’s right for you, payment plans, or anything of the sort, please email me at sarah@sarahmiller.me and we can set up a time to chat on the phone.

I’m grateful to know that I’m walking this earth with such a courageous warrior like you alongside me, dear.

All my love,

Sarah

 

Trade a life of seeking to understand for a life of living what you already know.

Click here to join me for a 12-week essential oil immersion.

Sarah Miller

Sarah Miller

Author | Sacred Space Holder | Speaker

Sarah Miller is author of The Unapologetic You, a sacred space holder, and a speaker. She is currently traveling the world speaking, writing, and holding workshops. To find out when she’ll be in a town near you, be sure to follow her on Instagram and Facebook.

To find out more about how to work with her one on one, click here.

To learn her pillars of living an unapologetic life of miracles, click here.

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